Okay, I'm over my pity party. I did this to myself. And yes things suck right now, but the answer isn't in the bottom of a bottle. I have a kid to raise, a house to figure out how to keep without a job, and a husband who gives me tough love, even when i just want a hug or someone to tell me everything will be okay. I got crap for sleep, but hopefully that will be helpful tonight. The leaves are raked before they kill my yard, laundry is working, kitchen is clean and i did it all while gagging lol.