Welcome Paxia. It doesn’t matter the substance. Besides I now consider alcohol a wet benzo. You are welcome here
how long was you on the Ativan? It’s a benzodiazepine and they are notoriously difficult to come off. Just have a look at the threads over at benzo buddies. You are in good company. I would speak to your doctor or better yet a psychiatrist. They might consider putting you on Valium/diazepam which has a far longer half life and taper you. Think it’s something like 200 hours the half life. I would not struggle in silence. Go speak to them.
also no drinking. I know you not addicted but your GABA glutamate system is whacked to bits at the moment. Alcohol in my humble opinion will only exacerbate the issue.
remember, you will be well again. This is only temporary.