Thanks for the replies guys. I also lost my only friend in real life recently so that has made my long seemingly endless boring and awful days even longer.
It's already difficult finding ways to pass the time. If I could sleep for the next 6 months and not have to wake up and have muscle atrophy and all the complications due to sleeping for so long I would choose that in an instant.
Becoming sober is the only thing going on in my life. So i'm trying to do it as perfect as I possibly can, hoping it might speed up the process of my mind and body healing.