Hi FF,
Upon reflection, I want to say that your using AVRT to recover seems to be working very well for you.
AVRT is completely compatible with all of your post drinking actions such as:
Having made a commitment “I will never drink again and I will never change my mind.”
Enjoying being around drunk people.
Thinking but not acting on how getting drunk might feel good.
Not struggling to be “busy” in order to not drink.
Walking into a liquor store and buying booze but then setting it aside and leaving it.
I’m quite sure as time passes, doing these sorts of “tests” or “shifting” back and forth into and out of thoughts and feelings supporting drinking, you will find them trivial, boring, and unnecessary. They became that for me.
the Big Plan? That’s what it makes it all work.
GT