Coz / something you said really just resonated with me:
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My emotions started off as anger ... to feeling really sad for him. It really reinforced to me that I don't ever want to drink and head back to that all-day drunk mode."
I should take some positives away from this and not let the guilt, shame, remorse, etc. claim some type of victory on this (or let the AV reason that I never drank on the job so really was I that bad?!?). I should let it reinforce for me the good choices I've made and I should appreciate what I have now and in front of me in terms of being sober and healthy.
Hugs to you and a big sober high five
