Positive vibes being sent from Northern Ontario to Mr. Hope
All is well here. Working from home today and sitting at my kitchen table staring out at my closed pool and all the trees without leaves every so often. At least it's not bitterly cold.
I had some weird sensations yesterday though I must admit. I went to the office and learning that an employee in a nearby department had been fired due to drinking on the job and sexual harassment (and other things that had mounted up). I couldn't help but think it could've been me that eventually progressed to drinking on the job. I would've surely ruined my career and likely brought down my family and our way of life with me. It consumed me with guilt. I feel better today but still have thoughts popping into my head that it could've been me getting fired for drinking on the job. I could've ruined so much just because I had to drink. Ugh. Horrible feeling of guilt and shame - typing this out brought it back again just now. Ugh.