If you go to AA I think you will be suprised how much you have in common with other alcoholics.
Drinking is a symptom of alcoholism. We drink because we are alcoholics, we are not alcoholics because we drink. Check out some different meetings and maybe in a few weeks you will find somebody that you think would make a good sponsor. They can take you through the 12 steps. This treats the root causes of our drinking.
From my teens into early 40s i could not imagine a life without alcohol. Once i bought into the program so much anxiety was lifted off my shoulders.