I'm still waking up after eleven months like I'm hungover often...my god!! Also new development last few days - weirdly depressed and I mean weirdly. Like not even really depressed but intrusive thoughts that are bothering me because my mind knows it will upset me. I read on here like three days ago in another post that someone on here had serious depressive symptoms, this then scared the hell out of me .. I started thinking what if I start to feel like this too...then my mind started playing tricks on me..now I'm worried I am going to get them too. Things have to pick up. Paws feels to me like what I would expect chemotherapy to feel like.