Hi and welcome Elysian
I really believe if things are meant to be they will be...but having said that I was a million different people each day of my first few months sober.
I had to work out who sober I was, before I could think about sharing myself and my life, especially with someone I cared about.
I had to put my recovery first for a while because everything else stemmed from that.
You're getting mixed messages, and that's understandable - there's what the head needs and what the heart wants. I think a little space couldn't hurt and may be beneficial in the long run, whatever happens?
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