Welcome Paul! You're on the right path and definitely not a hypocrite. For most I think it's a process of winding down the addiction / habit of drinking. You can't just flip a switch and it happen overnight. AA is full of sayings (some a little silly), but the one I do like is, "Progress not Perfection".
Hang in there buddy!
Edit - and I've been a long LONG time anxiety sufferer here and yes the mental health aspect of our lives can make things more challenging for sure.