you all have helped with your replies more than you will ever know. Thank you so much for taking the time, I am hoping that one day I can repay the favour.
Interestingly I am feeling clearer and clearer on this by the minute and I had a moment of emotion while on my walk this morning that can only be desribed as elation!
I am under no illusions about the reality of the next few months and how diffcult it will be - but I am already feeling so much happier than I have in a looonnnngg time. H has picked up on it and said something about the irony of getting my personality back now! So charming hey!
I know the kids will be fine and I have to be as supportive calm and strong as I can for them, show them heaps of love and ensure they have lots of good quality time with us both.