I have been a chronic relapser ever since I first tried to quit 10 years ago so no judgment here Eve. I am sober now but I know from experience that I am one drink away from 2 week bender.
I have had devastating consequences from my drinking which don't even come close to acting as a deterrent to keep me from drinking in the future. If I really want to drink there is nothing that will stop me. Consequences don't even enter my mind. I won't drink today, however. That's the only thing I can do.