"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work". You have to find what works for you and keep Doing the work. Sobriety has to be your number 1 priority because nothing else will change unless you are sober. For me, I got help just long enough to feel better then I believed I could carry on with life. Didn't work for me. I had to change my thinking, and change myself by taking a small step, then another, then another. It is continuous growth. You will find your path as long as you keep taking a step in a new direction.