Originally Posted by
Me68 
I do need a plan but am fearful I could never really initiate that plan unless forced to do so.
I encourage you to put your focus right now on developing a support community rather than on pressuring yourself to make and execute a plan by yourself. Reaching out to this forum is a great first step! It's almost impossible to deal productively with alcoholism on our own, so your community will be essential as you move along with this. It's beyond all reason to expect to be able to follow through with a major plan all by yourself. Focus right now on building your community and on gathering awareness. When you have much firmer footing you will be able to proceed in stability and confidence rather than in trepidation.