Thank you, everyone, for your kindness and support. You've given me a lot to think about.
The day got better. Someone decided they needed to go shopping so I said I'd stay home with the dogs. We had lovely nap, the dogs and I.
The kids came home with food, they were talking about some thing else, and everything was fine. They lit the chiminea and I was going to stay inside but they kept asking me to come sit with them so I did and had a great time.
Daughter with the digs had to leave but one and the SIL stayed and the 4th daughter is coming down today.
So today I am feeling much better, blessed with four daughters who love me and actually want to spend time with me. Oh, and the youngest told me she broke it off with the non-monagomous BF. Not sure what that means but I'm happy to be kept in the loop.
Today is a new day and I'm glad I didn't drink over this!