I’ve never been on Antabuse but from what I’ve read it is used as a deterrent for drinking because of knowing you’d suffer ill physical side effects whilst drinking on it.
What it isn’t, is a pill that beats alcoholism and cures it away. Now if we had such a pill, how many of us would’ve gone that route instead of slogging through the recovery process which is both intense on mind and body? As an alcoholic myself I surely would’ve embraced that. AV and cravings are here to stay throughout the rest of my life. The best way to fight it is to stay sober. There is truth behind sticking to it and it eases up.
What’s your plan with the AV going forward or once you’re off Antabuse?
AV can be a relentless bastard. I sometimes just say I don’t drink! Other times, why ruin this day or tomorrow for a short time period of the high? Sometimes I just go to bed. Exercise works. It will get better, just be aware its going probably hang around so you’ll want additional ways to grapple with it.