Originally Posted by
trailmix 
I just wanted to clarify this (sorry, it's late here haha). He is clearly NOT thinking clearly when he is drinking. I meant this with regard to the changes he was trying to make with his investments and whether he really intends/wants to do that.
That's just blackmail by the way, to control you.
thank you trailmix for your reply. As you might guess I am still awake with 1,000 thoughts running through my mind. The one I keep replaying is why I am surprised every time this happens and why I think things will be different.
I do need a plan but am fearful I could never really initiate that plan unless forced to do so. I believe I have become completely codependent despite my ability to have a stable career and being very capable of taking care of myself. The irony is I am afraid of being alone yet that is how I live a lot of my days and nights.
any good books you can recommend?