Erica, I am so sorry that your day with your daughters has not gone as you had hoped. The world is certainly changing and our own experiences can influence how we feel about and react to the changes; you have been through a lot and it is understandable that your past experiences are coming into play.
Can you do some deep breathing techniques now and try to calm your mind so you can resume your time with your daughters?
Please stay close to us. Drinking won’t help.