You;re entitled to your opinion but I think you're being manipulated by that pesky AV.
Its not far from 'all these people are not really sober - they need a crutch' - to 'man, I need a crutch too' - and AV wins again.
Man, it does get better
I was not on any other medication until about 7 years in.
Life was good but there was constant pain, but I managed.
I then developed a nerve pain problem which was a whole new level of agony.
Without drugs to deal with that I honestly don't know where I'd be.
That led to other meds to keep me healthy - I have a few other chronic health issues.
I'm not on meds to get high - I'm on meds to prolong my life and to make the quality of life as good as it can be.
Like Fini said it's an entirely different animal for me.
I asked because, in the past, I've been on SSRIs, hooked on weed, and currently struggle with alcohol. I exercise, meditate, work my recovery plan, but my emotions are, at times, overwhelming.
Things will get better - you're not that far from a recent relapse right? Give it time...and my advice is start thinking now about what a sober life you love might look like.
You start building that and you'll have no need of crutches