I make the best of what is left of me. I suffered hell on earth getting this clean. I will never give it up.
I got adrenaline, endorphins, dopamine, and melatonin when I quit drinking. This is the high that I get. It took a while to get used to the level I got. But, those were my natural high.
I am high right now because I ran for 1.5 miles then walked another 1.5. I will stay high for about 24 or so hours from this exercise.
This whole feeling good for no reason is something that left as my drinking days counted up. Ever see a 4 year old running around like a happy camper for no reason. That is a mind that is not damaged from booze.
When I was actively addicted I used to push myself to physical levels that caused adrenaline etc. When I quit drinking that exercise became my new high.
Exercise is my main therapy today. In the future, I will eventually have to find other ways to develop a natural high (endorphins etc).
Hope this answers your question.
Thanks.