Hello, Five - I'm so glad you came back.
I know what you mean about fear of missing out - it was one of my greatest dreads. But by the time I quit I was numb, foggy & stupid every time I drank - not the cool, sociable person I imagined myself to be. The fun, carefree times were gone & they weren't coming back. The little bit of control I once had in my early days of drinking had vanished. One drink led to too many - black outs, reckless behavior, danger. You can learn to live in a new way. You don't need it like you think you do.