Originally Posted by
Flowing 
I had nearly a month and I relapsed tonight.
I don't want to play the victim. I simply decided I could not deal with the emotions that I was experiencing. I was completely overwhelmed and I was not strong enough.
I have drunk a half bottle of scotch and completely ruined nearly a month of sobriety.
I'm not sure if I want to continue this fruitless pursuit of sobriety or just accept the fact that I'm always going to be broken in some way or another and stop fighting for perfection.
What's done is done. You can't change the past but you can learn from it.
Now you know a situation you drank in and why you drank. Come up with a plan for next time so you are better prepared and even better than that try to think of other situations where a relapse might happen so you can prepare for that too.
Also, you didn't lose that month of sobriety. You got to a month and no one can take that from you. You can get right back there very quickly and now you will be better prepared for that situation since you will have a plan.
Keep fighting your sobriety is worth it.