Recovery is not about perfection. It is about repairing damage done by past actions. It is seeking to minimize future damage by improving behaviors and thus the right actions that follow.
Drinking is about increasing guilt from past actions. It seeks to maximize future damage by degrading behaviors and thus the wrong actions that follow, which in turn increase the guilt and propagate the cycle.
I have drunk a half bottle of scotch and completely ruined nearly a month of sobriety.
Okay, can't change that; but keep in mind that you are not the first person on here do that. Every person on here that has that as part of their history made a choice after that action as to which path to choose for their next action. Which do you choose?
Both paths are simple in nature. Both are hard and come with pain along the way. But only one comes with the hope of a better future. The other one comes with a promise of a miserable future. Which do you choose?