Flowing

I had nearly a month and I relapsed tonight.

I don't want to play the victim. I simply decided I could not deal with the emotions that I was experiencing. I was completely overwhelmed and I was not strong enough.

I have drunk a half bottle of scotch and completely ruined nearly a month of sobriety.

I'm not sure if I want to continue this fruitless pursuit of sobriety or just accept the fact that I'm always going to be broken in some way or another and stop fighting for perfection.