You are in the right place....there is so much support, help and advice here.
I found that counselling has been really helpful. I had a lot of dark and scary stuff that I drank to cope with. It turned out that talking about it and, realising I could overcome these things, has been the most significant thing I have done in my recovery. I am by no means there yet but I have managed to do things I never dreamed I could do, and that has propelled me to keep trying and moving forward
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