I struggle so much with this addiction as a disease, I do believe addicts are sick but I believe it is a sickness of bad/selfish/wrong choices. You can't say no to cancer, you can say no thanks I'll only have one Parkinsons shake tonight. You can and people do choose not to have a drink or a line, or take a pill. I am so angry at my AH, he has just begun counseling, 3 weeks, at least 3 relapses that I am aware of, one being last night, he left for work around 9:30 AM and never came home, I still haven't heard from him but I spoke to someone at his rehab facility and he went to his counseling session this morning. Is that normal addict behavior? How can he be so "sick" as to use beyond being able to get himself home and then brush him self off and be able to get to couseling on time?