Originally Posted by messymissy

I really don't know if I am doing this correctly...anyhow...
I left treatment 2 weeks ago today and will be clean 60 days on Christmas. I came home to live with my parents and my 11 year old daughter. I stay in such constant fear of criticism and ridicule also. I am feeling things for the first time in years. I took nerve pills, muscle relaxers, alcohol and crack cocaine. I am happy and proud to be clean so far, but I don't feel like I have any rights to my life or my daughters' life. I live in fear of losing custody to her father. He is a recovered addict (religious now) and he puts me down and dictates what I can and cannot do as far as the living arrangements with my daughter. I am trying to be patient.