Originally Posted by
freedomfries 
I've done some really bad things in the past that I think everyone knows about.
I did, too. But it never made me feel “my sobriety is precarious”.
My sobriety was precarious purely because I had not had a drink in a while and everything was going better and my strong habituated appetite’s (my AV’s) desire to get that same old deep pleasure was building up again and I hadn’t decided to quit for good, yet. “Be careful.” “Figure out a good time and place so if you lose control again you can hide out for a day, because people might be watching.”
It was remembering the bad things I’d done on alcohol, like you trashing your sister, that made me finally decide to never drink again - just like you did about ten days ago. Practicing AVRT is not hard, but your AV simply doesn’t want you to do it.
That “precarious sobriety” is just your AV. Recognize and dismiss. College will always be there, you are far from being a dummy. You know what to do.