Originally Posted by
Dee74 I don't think you're worthless at all.
I think a lot of people - good, otherwise smart people - make the mistake of taking up a drink or a drug again and thinking this time will be different.
Often the only difference is things get worse that they did in the past.
Addiction rarely remains static - it almost always progresses if we keep feeding it, regardless of how much sober time we had inbetween.
I should know this - but, forgive me, I read a lot of peoples stories - are you against meeting based approaches like AA NA or SMART or Lifering etc?
Those kinds of things can provide you with another layer of support?
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I can’t do any of that right now because of stupid Coronavirus unless I do online.
And I didn’t drink thinking it would be different. I drank because I wanted to feel good. I’ve purposely kept “stuff” around for an “in case I need it moment” and have basically been teetering on a relapse since my last opiate bender at the end of last year.
But then again, I bounced back fairly quickly from that. But still kept stuff around with the intention of a future relapse.
Maybe the issue is I’m not committing to recovery?