Hi Flowing! As others have said, graciously accepting that it can no longer be part of your life takes a while. I had been drinking for decades and it was destroying me. Yet when I gave it up I seemed to only remember the fun times. They'd been gone for ages - it had brought me only misery in the end. As I got some sober time behind me I stopped feeling sorry for myself & started looking forward to the new life that was in front of me. I would no longer be dependent on it to get through the day - I was free. That feeling took over, and I found joy & happiness again. You will too.