Thanks so much. I have looked up cognitive dissonance and trauma bonding...its pretty textbook isnt it. His words really do mean nothing and its a bitter pill to swallow sometimes. But I know i must accept reality just finding it very hard. I am trying so hard to focus on myself.
Your are quite right, it is a tornado. And its preventing me from living my life like I have put myself in prison.
Im going to keep working on myself as much as i can, try to regain some energy and somehow take my power back.