Thing is when im good and "on the up" I preform really well and really try and own the day and I push myself to be the best man I can be. I then get really tired but try to push on because I'm "doing well". Then I drink and come crashing down.
My therapist says that when I'm doing well I need to not forget about the vunerable anxious part of me as it always comes back...and it really does.