Hey there, also anxious here and get what you are saying 100%. Have you discussed your anxiety with your doc? I take a regular med and it has helped tremendously with baseline anxiety. For years, alcohol was a "med" I took for it and we all know how that works out.
And you're definitely not a failure...anxiety is a real thing and you are trying to reduce that, but also recognize alcohol isn't the answer. Give yourself a big pat on the back that you are realizing your situation and just need to continue to make progress on when your weakness for drinking in order to intercept it Many folks never get to this point.
Hang in there!
