Hi John...I feel the same way....I am alone also...and it is the worst feeling....You kinda made me feel like not so alone at being alone...I hope I can make you feel the same...because nothing is worse...but if we continue to be sober..we will eventually have the motivation to do whatever it takes to not be alone....For now I pacify myself and tell myself (you need this time to recover your body from the damage and sometimes that perks me up a little bit)...enough to go to the store or take a ride and feel more alone...LOL....but at least I get out to pass some of the "alone time" and sometimes I talk the poor cashiers heads off....don't care...LOL