Boggle, welcome! Make sure that you keep posting! Watch out for the AV and it telling you to not post for whatever reason it makes up. Be prepared to guard against relapse and if it happens just get right back on. Stay here no matter what and post. Try to reframe your thinking to be more positive. Most people never seek help for their substance abuse so you are here and among the best as you are trying to quit and seeking help! We are all in your corner.