Sounds like you’re not done yet. Sounds like there’s a part of you that thinks it’s still worth it. Every drink you take is another scoop from your shovel in the hole you’re digging for yourself. You can keep digging or put down the shovel. Either way you’ve got a climb to make to get out, it’s up to you how big of a hole you want to climb out of.
Man, can I relate though. I’ve never understood those people that say I just wanted one drink. I KNOW that when I pick up it is an at least a 4 day thing. Sometimes it’s a week or two. Those 5 day binges are really really hard on our bodies though.
So I ask, are you done yet?