I have to agree with D122y about, "No one knows what goes on in my head and I don't want a drug to help me."
I've gone to "therapy." Useless, in my opinion. I've taken anti-depressants. Made me feel worse.
The best thing(s) I did was work out my specific issues, and there were plenty. Still are some days.
Humans are pretty complicated, but there is a book or a website for any issue. For me it's usually about forgiving or about humility or fear. Very human. Not really things I can escape, I just have to work through them.
You're okay, stuff comes and goes for all of us and I know you are capable of solving whatever issue you face. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.