HI FF. 37 days is awesome and things would be so much worse with 37 days of drinking layered on your last 37 days.
I would revisit your meds with your doc. There are many different ones and some work and some don't. You sound horribly depressed and perhaps your med isn't working on you right now?
No need to break any speed records but can you get outside and wander a bit? I find that outdoor movement of even 10 minutes is a mood changer. The longer the better.
I'm sorry you are feeling unmotivated. Staying off the drink though is the only way you will get better.