I have paws/kindling still at my time clean.
Mine started out so horrible I could have been sent to a ward.
Reading your post reminded me that guys like us best not relapse or face worsening mental anguish that will lead to clinical mental conditions...e.g. insanity.
After this time, mine is nearly gone but i still get little tremors and feelings that remind me of the early days.
I knew if I spoke to a Dr. Back them I would begin a lifelong rx med regimen and who know what else.
I am an addict for life and come here because this is the only place I can talk about my issue without having to drive to an AA meeting.
I did several AA meetings, but it seemed to me all i was really doing was waiting for my chance to talk....and even then I only talked a few times. Otherwise i sat there and sort of listened while I rudley played on my phone.
paws equals permanent brain damage. I don't think it ever goes away, I just got used to it. The brain damage is permanent.
I must stay clean or face the consequences.
Thanks.