Yeah, you’re right about that D - it’s never really free, there’s always a catch! and now I’m suffering for my choices and I feel horrible and I know I’ll be up for a while & to just makes me want to sleep but obvi sleep isn’t happening on Adderall. i agree I really do need to stay away from those people and I think I need to re evaluate my recovery plan and attend online NA meetings or something, I went to a few before COVID started, I’m not one for Zoom Meetings b/c I do SO many of them at work it’s like Zoom burnout if that’s a thing ahaha! Maybe they have phone meetings or something instead, I’ll have to look into that. My sister is going to be so disappointed in me if she finds out, we stated rebuilding our relationship in Feb. and it’s been going great but she will be extremely disappointed and maybe even angry if she discovers I used. I’m so so upset with myself right now!! Sorry again that I’m rambling. Thank you for the advice, greatly appreciated!!