Sorry for the empty space -- story of my life
Have read through the thread, seems like you're no longer in that "death behind one door, which oh which should I choose" state -- good thing!
Personally, I didn't find so-called deep introspection into psychology did me any good in early recovery, or really, at any time. It was like a red herring. Leading me away from the top priority, which was stop drinking, lead a decent life. I'd get myself all convinced that some other person had insight into all my problems, or the problems of those around me, and forget that insight wasn't what I needed.
You're sounding much healthier.
