Sounds like your opinion of greatness might be too high. We talking professional athlete? the 1% Richie rich kind of stuff? Talk that out with a therapist I feel like you are selling yourself short. Your damn right you had to be adopted meet your wife and then have your kids. Awesome being that pawn in my opinion. I am also a pawn with that same trajectory but not I have a wonderful family and I get to raise my kids and I am absolutely still necessary in their lives. Maybe pawn is a bit derogatory but I think you get what I am saying.