OMG...someone who drinks like me....I never thought someone could drink like I do....that is what it is...a frigin bender...and I do the same thing...I can't even open the computer till around Day 2...never take a shower till around Day 3....its horrendous...I feel your pain and keep going....I have 7 days...today my shower felt like a shower...and not chore.
My Dad died in March....I know how you feel...and having a sick Mom is a lot of pressure too...it only makes our emotional state worse and we drink....but I was drinking before my Dad died too...we drink cause we are alcoholic and this is how we cope....Get better.