Originally Posted by
Stable 
I had to work hard last week and felt I needed/ deserved a drink.
You know none of us reading can think that way however hard we’ve worked or whatever stress we have. We never needed or deserved a drink. It was our altered brains telling us to drink.
I still don’t get why you source so much booze. If you bought 2 bottles of beer, I can sort of get that, but not 10+ bottles.
But that’s not the issue. I’m upset and disappointed to read your post. I noticed you’d been gone, and I hoped for a better outcome. You’re not daft by any means, but you’re missing out on so much in life by drinking like this.
Whatever you’re doing now isn’t working, and to get that “deserve a drink” mindset out your head needs help. Ask your GP to start with. Good luck, but please stop repeating this cycle.