Yeah Stable, if the wind blew a certain way or the sky was not quite the shade of blue I wanted, it was a reason to drink. We need to get to the place that there are no reasons to pick up a drink and the realization that drinking won't change the wind or the sky or anything else. If you drink because you are happy, the happiness is quickly extinguished. If you drink because you are hungry, angry, lonely or tired, all of those will get worse with drinking. Glad you are back and posting. You can get this figured out.