I had to learn here that the crave attacked my emotional mind, the resistance to the crave was my analytical mind.
Left brain vs Right brain. That is why the whole process made me feel insane.
As the physical addiction of the body dies down, the mental addiction (which is sort of physical because it directly impacts the brain's chemistry) lingers for years. The mental addiction works a myriad of angles to get me to relapse. If I could think about it, it was a reason to relapse.
Even now, the crave is there. I read here that folks don't crave and I can relate. But, I also relate to those that relapse after years of sobriety.
Left vs Right.
Booze is poison. I have unlearned drinking.
Thanks.