Day 1 again
This is so old and I’m so tried. I’ve been a heavy drinker for the last decade ( sounds so real saying this). I’ve embarrassed myself, family , and friends too many time to count. The drinking has evil spilled over to my professional life. Am a mess . I’ve completely let myself go . I’m fat and bloated. Hair is falling out. Skin looks like ****. Plainly I’m ugly as hell. I feel and look ugly. Somethings have to give . I’m simply functioning and not living. At 41 years of age I never thought this would be my life. I’m alone, bitter, and sad even though I wear a mask that everything is ok. It’s not.
I want to change. I have to.