I know what you guys all mean about therapy. It can be quite confronting to look at ourselves and our lives in depth.
I have another appointment booked for next week.
She wants to start talking about some specific childhood/teenage/family relationship stuff. And I know I need to go there because it’s past hurts and my reactions to them that have led to the way I’ve dealt with situations all my life (not at all healthy or constructively but with alcohol to push the emotions away and by running away from anything that’s “too hard”). Oh yeah, I have a huge tendency to run away or drown stuff in a bottle. So it’s going to be painful dredging up some of those past hurts, but it’s time I faced them again and deal with them so I can move on. Otherwise I don’t know if I’ll be able to maintain sobriety. When things get hard I need to face them rather than keep running away from them and drowning my feelings in a bottle.
Ah that’s a bit deep for 7.30am lol
It’s Friday morning and I’m off to get more coffee and get ready for work.
See you all later x