DAY 31!!.....
The sun is out and it's good to be off. Got loaded up with tons of good food, treats and other nice things to have in the cupboard.
I am feeling pretty good, the anxiety has died down a bit and it's good to get some rest. I think the thing that is hanging around me just now is feeling that 31 days is good (I know it) but I have been here A LOT of times before and still messed it up. I am feeling like my thinking is changing and I am keeping the commitment I have made to come here each day and connect with my decision to properly start recovery, but it's just that I don't trust myself or my mind to not become weak and just fail. I guess I will have to cross that bridge if I come to it.
I am able to challenge and change that intense fearful thinking that I reckon unpinned most of my drinking. I feel less scared, less tense and less like I want to be alone all the time, so I am taking that as a Really Good Sign. I need that. I really, really need that.
I am aiming for the day I log on here and it's 365 days.............I will be over the moon!
