James I have just read some of your old posts.
Have you ever tried working the 12 steps. Omg, they are absolutely amazing, they are changing me as a person. I used to live in the past and constantly worry about the future. The steps have taught me to live in the present. I rarely look back at my past anymore, I neither regret it nor wish to close the door on it and I am now excited not fearful about my future. The steps have helped me to get rid of old resentments, to face my fears head on, to let go of selfish and self seeking motives, to help others, to be GRATEFUL every single day for what I have not miserably and full of self pity for what I don't have. Working the steps has quite literally changed my life.
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